I had a really strange dream last night that I haven’t been able to shake. It was unsettling, yet inspiring and strange, all at the same time.
So, although this isn’t what I normally post, it’s happening. Let’s do this!
When I was younger I was always really interested in my dreams. I have vivid, weird dreams that I remember almost every night. Other times I dream about normal day-to-day things like getting groceries, or cleaning my floors. But when I was a kid, I would write them down and try to figure out what they meant. I even picked up a book about dreams at the thrift store to try and decipher them. Afterwards I would talk to my Grandma about my dreams, usually followed by her telling me about her latest out of body experience… Anyway.
But last night I had a strange dream, and it kind of makes sense.
It started off with me walking to my Studies in English Vocabulary class, except it wasn’t in my actual school, it was in a skyscraper in NYC. As I arrived at class and took a seat in the back row facing the floor to ceiling windows, we were told it was time to take our second test (this is a test that I have to do on Thursday). And I panicked, because I hadn’t studied for it at all!
As we were working on our tests, I was freaking out because I though I was going to fail. Then my professor told us to pack up our stuff because a tsunami was coming and we had to leave. At that point we could see it through the windows. Scrambling to get our stuff in our backpacks, we realized we didn’t have time and I had to leave my laptop behind, which made me really upset.
Of course, this being a dream and a very unrealistic one, the water started coming in and we were all running up the stairs to high ground. By the time we reached the top, the tsunami had passed, and the water started receding. In what felt like just a few minutes, all of the water went away and NYC was left wet, but completely intact.
At that point, we were told that classes were cancelled, so I went out into the street, splashed through a bunch of puddles, and hopped on a train that took me to the NYC zoo. I walked around starring at all these huge, dripping wet animals until I reached the reptile area. When I was there I looked at all of the strange lizards (which none were actually true breeds in real life) trapped in their tiny cages, and then I woke up.
This dream was strange because 1. I have never been to NYC and I have dreamed about NYC. Although I have been thinking about it a lot recently, as it’s one of the places I’ve always wanted to go. 2. Why a tsunami? Why a zoo? Why why whyyy such a weird dream? Although, dreams about school are quite normal right now, since I’m in school, taking a test in a dream can still symbolize anxiety (school is very anxiety-inducing, no?).
I did a little digging and it turns out dreaming about tsunamis can symbolize being overwhelmed by something, or experiencing unhappiness and emotional instability. I can tell you right now that I am overwhelmed as fuuuuuck. To say it lightly. And dreaming about a zoo can mean loss of freedom, or feeling as if your skills and talents are going unnoticed. That, too, would make sense right now. School is rough, man. And, finally, I tried to figure out why it was based in New York City, but dreams that take place in NYC can mean a bunch of different things, good or bad. Seeing as how my dream started out anxiety filled and kind of ended bright and cheerful in a weird way, it felt like I had accepted things. On a positive note, dreaming about NYC can symbolize escaping the mundane or a new and exciting lifestyle. But it can also symbolize feeling alone (if you’re alone in your dream, which I was), being really busy in life and unable to keep up with demands. And any of these meanings would make sense to me.
Being in school and trying to grow a freelance business, all the while really striving to be healthier and happier, it’s overwhelming and it’s exciting, and it’s busy and hard, and it’s full of amazing experiences and anxiety all at the same time. So dreaming about taking a school test in NYC, experiencing a (very unrealistic) tsunami and ending up at the zoo, that kind of makes sense for where I’m at in life right now.
All of this to say, holy fuck life as a student/entrepreneur is hectic!
Do you ever try to make sense of your dreams? What’s the strangest one you’ve had recently? And are you as stressed and overwhelmed as me right now?! Like, wow, 2017 is testing me in every (good) way!